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| I can't believe it, but in two weeks, I will be in Aspen!!! So excited for Spring Break! I'm so excited that I'm not going home. I mean it's going to be so weird not once being home from January to May, and I don't even know if I'm living there this summer, it's so weird. But, exciting news!!! I got a little!!! She's amazing, that's all I'm going to say!!! I'm obsessed with Alpha Chi!!! | | |
| Why am I so involved? I high school I had a crazy scheduled and wore myself out...why am I doing this again? Why? Why? Why?
Internship hunting, classes, RHA, sorority stuff, it's taking over my life. I just need a weekend to myself. And you know when that will be...ummm never...booked solid every weekend from now until the beginning of April. Alpha Chi craziness, RHA conferences, babysitting, Will mother-daughter weekend. And all I want to do is sleep...
next year when I get back from abroad, I will be more relaxed. Babysitting and like only 1 or 2 positions, rather than 1 or 2 in a particular club... | | |
| Wow, I can't believe how much has happened in the past few weeks. It's like "wow," I haven't had a chance to reflect on it. We had rush. The week went well, and I absolutely bonded like crazy with my sisters. I love them so much. But the problem is that someone messed up our pledge class, so there are only 12 of them. And every other sorority on campus has over 30. We had 32 girls say that they would accept a bid to us, but then we lost so many. One stupid freshman girl convinced her friends not to show up to bid day, when they were putting on makeup to come to bidday. Oh, the drama of stupid freshman girls. But now the real reason I'm writing this. We had a girl at Richmond get raped a week and a half ago. And it's one of those things that you hear about and get an email about to make sure that you're safe, but when you realize that it's one of your best friends, you're like wow. It wasn't even like it was one of those "he said she said" kind of things where you know your attacker and there is no injury. Simple rape, what I learned it was called in fem theories. No, this was one of those violent, 4 big football player sized black dudes from Virginia Union who she thought were someone's friends from home and said they would drive her to her room across campus. The only thing that saved her was that her screams woke up a neighbor and they called the police. The police got there to find two of the assailants still with her and two of them running away. They only have 3 in custody now, one is still out there. It's like "wow" this really doesn't happen in real life. I just think that if that neighbor hadn't woken up, how many times would they have raped her, or would they have even killed her. I don't know. I was on the elliptical at the gym tonight when the story hit the news. She's been gone a week and a half. But up until tonight, when I saw the clip of the woods where they had taken her and found out that her screams saved her, it didn't really hit me. I almost walked out of the gym in tears. I didn't know what to do. So, somehow in just a few short weeks, my life has changed so much. My friend transferred back home, moving back into her parents house. No one at Richmond really knows that it was her, there are probably only 15 of us who know the truth. I know that we've all gotta be strong because she's coming back for the preliminary hearing, then maybe a trial, but it freaks me out so much that this happened, let alone to one of my best friends. | | |
| Break has not been that eventful. I went to NYC with Michelle, slept until noon multiple days, and worked a little bit. But nothing that crazy. Overall, it was pretty nice to take some time to relax. But now I'm getting to this weird point. I really want to go back to school, but I'm so weird about it too. I think it's because I'm not coming home for Spring Break (Colorado for skiing with some of my favorite people in the whole world!) and I'm so excited for that, but its just weird knowing that I won't be back here until May. And then I don't even know if I'll be here this summer, I'm applying for internships everywhere. It's just so strange. Like I know that I complain about nothing to do while I'm here and such, but it just feels so strange to know that I'm leaving, and for this time, it's so much longer than before. Like in November, I knew that I was going to be home three times in a month, and now I won't be back here for 4 months. And my mom in march is the only family member that I'm going to see in the meantime. It's just a weird feeling. I think its because alot of my friends are back at school already, and I'm not used to being home when other people are back already. Who knows, maybe I'm just nostalgic. I think it's just that life in New Jersey is so much more simple and relaxed than life in Richmond, and I want to savor that. Or the fact that I love having my own room, that's the same size as the double that I share in Richmond. I think I'm just crazy! That's probably it! But all I know is that I want to future to be here now, so that all of these weird feelings will subside! | | |
| Wow! I'm going to be home tomorrow. I am officially done with 3/8 of my college career. It has gone by so incredibly fast, I can't believe it. This semester has been fun, but it's also been a time for readjusting. Not being on the same hall with everyone has really tested alot of my friendships and I can now see who I truly count as my best friends. And I feel like I've finally found one at Richmond, and it makes me really happy. She's the person who will always make me smile, be my partner in crime, and always just won't forget about me. I'm really happy because she was going to go abroad next spring, and I'm going abroad in the fall, so I wouldn't see her, but she just decided she's going abroad in the fall, so I'll be able to see her next year. I've also realized how much I value some of my friendships. Like Steph who has still kept in contact with me in Chile, a continent and two time zones away. It really just makes me happy, that all of these friendships I have made are actually beginning to amount to something. I don't know, all of last year I kind of wondered if these women would still be my friends if I didn't live on the same hall as them, and I still wonder that alot, but now I can see how certain friendships have remained tight, and how others have just faded away. I really love those who I've remained close with, and those who I just recently became close with. | | |
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